Showing posts with label nostalgia. Show all posts
Showing posts with label nostalgia. Show all posts

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Ash Wednesday

I love Easter. I love that it brings my family all to the same place. I love the pastel colors. I love that my mom always gives my granma (yes, that's how she spells it) a bouttenire (really, spellcheck? You can't help me out with that one?). I love the baby animals. I love the symbolism it has for me as a Christian. I even love the smell of vinegar when making Easter eggs. This love affair with Easter then leads to my love for Lent and Ash Wednesday.
I hear the Gospel all the time. I'm active in multiple Christian organizations. I study my Bible. The belief that Christ suffered on the cross for my sins, died, and then rose again three days later, giving me eternal life is an omnipresent idea in my world. In fact, it gets a little old hearing about it all the time. But somehow, every spring, Easter comes around and I am so excited to hear the message again.
One thing that I really loved as a youth member was an "activity" we participated in when I was in 8th grade that made the message even more powerful. This year, I decided to pass on the practice to my Phi Lamb Phamily.


I brought three different materials to make black bracelets out of. The one that's triangular in the above picture is some braided leather cord. The lacy-looking strip is just some trim I picked up in the ribbon section. The last one is a strip of bandanna. I remember making bracelets out of bandannas all the time when I was younger. You cut a strip on the bias, get it damp, twist it until it curls itself together, then let it dry. I used this same concept to make them again. 


I told the girls that the black bracelets they were wearing represented sin. Every time they looked down and saw the black, or took a shower and noticed that their wrist wasn't getting dry because the bandanna was still wet, or felt the bracelets as they took notes in class, to remember their sin.


The leather one didn't stay tied. This picture is after the leather on came off and was added instead to my...



Keys! Now I'll remember my sin and why I am celebrating observing Lent when I drive, too.

More to come on what to do next. Not until Good Friday, though. Until then, share your experiences with Easter! Also, what are you giving up (or taking on) for Lent? I've gotten pretty lax about taking the Lord's name in vain, so I'm working on taking that out of my vocabulary. I already messed up once today, so I'm definitely going to need to find a rubber band to snap on my wrist when I catch myself doing it.

Short tutorial coming up soon!

Happy (?) Ash Wednesday! Have a great rest of the week! If you need a reason to smile, you should head over to see Clara Rose, Dana's newest addition :] Such a precious bundle!

Leave your tips for giving up something over the next 40 days to help me out!

♥L

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Jason Mraz

I really don't want to be that blogger who says to much personal stuff and is all self pity all the time, but this is a turning out to be a really difficult season in my life and writing has always helped me sort out my feelings. For some reason, though, I haven't been able to bring myself to write the way I usually do (in a plain composition notebook, addressed to "Mr. Me" and signed "Miss You" based on a book I read in junior high-I Can't Tell You by Hillary Frank). Maybe I don't want to sort them out yet? Soon.

Anyway. . .
I am amazed at how many things in "the media" (ya know, TV, music, movies, etc. I think it's a silly grouping term, but it's the one I know, so I used it) seem so relatable to me now (why does Word trust the word "relatable, but blogger doesn't?). I have already thought about getting back together with David and ending our break before the semester long hiatus even starts, but I know that that is not the right decision. I'm used to being a "we" now, and it's hard to remember what it's like to just be me. I keep reminding myself that I'm the same person I was before, but I still am not doing a very good job of moving forward. I know this was (mostly) my decision and that there were a lot of things I wanted to do with my time away, but now that I have all this time to work on myself, I really don't know where to start alone. So I can't wait for some of my normal school year activities get started again and I have a schedule and other people to help me put the pieces back together and remind me how I wanted to be the better person I've been thinking of. 

Basically none of that has anything to do with this song except that it's new and relatable to me. I am the girl being sung to, though, not the person singing. I am the one who wanted to do some "navigating." It's good to hear Jason was waiting at the end of the journey to hear all about it. I hope I can expect the same from David.


When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone 

who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make 

the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot 

to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, 

we got a lot at stake
And in the end, 

you're still my friend 
at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, 

we didn't burn
We had to learn 

how to bend 
without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, 

and what I'm not
And who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Still looking up.

I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up



So, it's totally cheesy that I put the words in dark red, but I wanted to make sure you knew that this was me talking and those were the lyrics. I really like this song already and bought it immediately after watching the video the first time. I don't think I've given up on anything at the moment, so maybe these words will be true from my perspective at the end of the semester rather than me being the person they are being sung about.


Thanks Mr. A-Z for the wonderful music. I'm sure there's at least one other person out there who feels like they are on the same side of the situation that I am and that this gives them hope that the person they are venturing away from for now will still be there for them later. I pray he is. I don't think he's the "give up" type :]

-L


P.S. It's still doing that thing where the last couple of paragraphs are triple spaced instead of just double. I seriously need to figure out how to fix that.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Day 27: Someone You Love

Throughout the drawing challenge, David was always asking me why he wasn't the inspiration for certain pictures. "Why aren't I your best friend?" "Why am I not your inspiration?" "Why haven't you drawn meeee?" Because there was a day just for you, dear :] I love lots of people. Many of the people in my life are people whom I would die for without a heartbeat's hesitation. I care so much about my friends and family; everything I do truly is to make them proud and happy. Thankfully their standards for those things are around the same as my own, so I make myself proud and happy, too. Basically, I love a lot of people, but this day was always saved for my beau.


I told David that I tried to make it manly. I think I may have failed. . . It's the thought that counts though, right? My original idea was much more girly, so this is better than it could've been, at least.

We celebrated 3 years of togetherness at the beginning of October :]


My great friend, Shannon and her boyfriend were kind enough to take some couple-y photos of us a couple of weekends ago while David was here :] David has a DSLR and Josh and Shannon had a lot of fun with that. I was doing some editing on the pictures earlier at the Wesley Foundation (a student ministry based out of the United Methodist Church; I spend all my Tuesdays there) and asked one of the women who works there, Janina, what she though of an edit. . .


Make the flower on my necklace more purple (like above) or keep it the more muted purple that it is in real life? We obviously chose the more purple one; but when I showed her she said "those are cute pictures! You're not engaged, are you, Lauren?!" I thought it was funny, and told her no, it was just for fun. Then I assured her that I will tell her when I get engaged.

On the way to San Antonio for Bands of America Super-Regionals and UIL State marching competitions.

I always think how we got together is a funny story. I'm sure David would tell the tale completely differently than I do because he remembers me from earlier than I do him.
Supposedly we had World Geography together freshman year-I have no recollection of it.
We also apparently had AP Physics B together first semester of junior year. I remember there being an Asian guy sitting next to me whom I would ask for homework help a lot, but I don't remember it being David. I dropped the class at the end of the semester with the support of our teacher who told me "yeah, you just don't understand it." Thanks Mr. Frensley.
In spring of junior year, David played the piano for the prelude at the Bandolera Spring Show (a showcase of our drill team's dances, along with the drumline, country western dance team, and a comedy troupe) and I specifically remember saying hi to him and knowing his name at that point. I don't remember how I knew his name, but I did. . .

In San Antonio on the way to a performance. Please don't judge me on that horrible make-up. . .We celebrated our one month anniversary on that bus :]

Finally, David was named Drum Major of our marching band, and I was a colorguard officer. I was gone for most of August when band camp was, but when I got back we had a guard performance at Convocation. All the teachers in the school district come together for a pep rally type celebration to get excited for the coming school year. A lot of different groups from the schools perform; that year it included the Berkner colorguard (moi), the Drum Majors from all four high schools, the drumline from Lake Highlands High School, and the 1st and 2nd graders from one of the elementary schools who did a cute little dance. Anyway, David and I were both there along with the rest of the colorguard and the other two Drum Majors from Berkner. I had been really anxious all morning because an ex-boyfriend was a Drum Major at one of the other schools and he still gave me butterflies. . .then Emily, a friend from guard and one of the biggest flirts you will ever meet, started flirting with David. I don't know why, but for some reason something snapped, and all I could think was "not him." I just knew that he was "mine." I sat with him on the bus back to the school and made sure he came to the guard end of summer party that Friday. When he showed up, I got his number and sat next to him during the movie-Mean Girls. He was so innocent he even shielded his eyes during the kissing scenes. So precious!

 Band Banquet senior year.

I started texting him a lot and we got to know each other. At Cici's after a home game (the pizza place stays open late for our band the nights of home games) about 3 weeks before Homecoming (a huge deal in Texas), I asked him to go to the dance with me. He said he "didn't know if his plans were going to work out," but he'd let me know. The whole next week went by and nothing happened. . . The next Thursday (1 week and a few days before Homecoming), before practice that morning, my best friend Molly came up to me and said "David told me to tell you not to worry about finding a date for Homecoming. You're not supposed to know he told me to, though." As I went to all of my classes that day I got a rose and an origami crane from each teacher, eventually getting 6 flowers and notes on the birds that read "will you go to Homecoming with." In my last class, guard, the rest of the dozen roses and a crane that said "me?" were waiting on the table at the front of the band hall. I of course said yes!

 The mum he made for me and the garter I made for him. It's a Texas tradition to do these at Homecoming. We wear them all day Friday-many people to the game as well. It stems from girls getting chrysanthemums from boys and were originally a sign of popularity.

We got together that Saturday to work on mums and garters with a couple of other friends, did the exchange on Wednesday, the game on Friday, and went to the dance on Saturday. Saturday night we stayed at a friend's house with the rest of our group (usually you go to dinner, the dance, and an after party with a group of friends-we make t-shirts to show which group we're in and stuff) and the next morning David got up and went to church! What a good boy :] I expected him to kiss me on the way out, but he didn't :[
Pictures before the Homecoming dance.
 
The next weekend we had a marching competition in Arlington, TX. After performing our prelim show, we went to the mall over there for lunch and a short break before rehearsing for finals. David and I had been holding hands since Homecoming and did so at the mall, as well. At one point he let go of my hand, put his in his pocket, and grabbed mine again-only there was something in his hand now. I stopped to see what it was and it was a bracelet. He asked me out and put the bracelet on me when I said yes :] It was really cute. Soon after, I noticed him pull our hands behind us a little bit and then return them to where they had been. . . He thought he was being sly, but I knew that he did it to show our friends behind us who knew of his plan that I did, indeed, have the bracelet on. I just love him! So, the rest is history. We've certainly had our ups and downs, nearly breaking up three times in a 3-4 week period freshman year of college, but we're really great now and looking forward to the future. I wear a size 5.5 ring, if he ever asks you ;]

Here are some more pictures from over the years:

Spring band trip to Corpus Christi senior year.

Prom!

One my sister took for us as a senior piture.

Senior Sunday at my church. David was my piano accompaniment for a song I performed.

In Florida two summers ago.

Spring Break '11 with the best friends. Port Aransas, TX.

At the Zoo this past summer.

Just a couple of weeks ago-David's very first NCAA football game in person!

David, you are such a great supporter for me. You are so caring, giving, and all around a great guy. Any girl would be lucky to have you, which means I'm the luckiest since I snagged you first! I truly could not be more excited for our future (though I'm loving the here and now, as well). Thank you for all you mean to me and all you've done for us these past three years. ♥

If you did this drawing, would it have been your significant other? Your mom or dad? Your best friend? Maybe someone you don't even know-Oprah? J.K. Rowling?
Do you think the word 'love' gets thrown around too easily these days?
Tell me everything! :]

Here's wishing you a warm Wednesday,
L

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Day 18: Just a Doodle

I'm not super proud of this drawing. It was a weekend when it was "assigned" to me, so I didn't have a class to doodle it during. It is what it is, though. It's got pretty colors and lettering of course :]


I'm a fan of monograms, initials, names, etc. I just think they're fun to draw and color and there's so much you can do with them! I wish monograms were more in style as a way to recognize people instead of just something pretty on the towels they get at their wedding.
At the daycare I work at during the summers, we did American History last year as the topic of the summer and at one point made calling cards. The kids got to pick a couple of outlines for their name to go in and then they passed them out to each other to put in their little pouches for safe-keeping. The pouches were made of paper painted silver that the kids got to use a special pen on to make their monogram with some guidance from Miss Lauren :] It was fun and the kids were so excited that Miss Lauren and Mrs. Burgraff gave them their calling cards! It was precious! I miss those kids. But that was one way that I experienced that monograms could be useful and stylized.

That's it for today! Two drawings tomorrow! I had two things that I really wanted to draw that both fit the prompt :] Have a thrilling Thursday tomorrow!
L